Adapt me, Transform me, Mold me

I read this in our morning devotions today. I'm sure it was written just for me just for today.

"No pronuncies oraciones del tipo: 'Consuelame, ayudame a vivir sin contratiempos, librame de este mal rato.' Ora mas bien: 'Adaptame, transformame, moldeame, aunque me duela.'"

Do not pray, "Comfort me, help me to live without setbacks, free me from this bad time." Rather pray, "Adapt me, transform me, mold me even if it hurts."

To say I'm struggling at being completely on my own with 3 little girls is an understatement. I've looked for other options/solutions to the struggle and they have not worked out.

I have to believe that for some reason God is allowing the 4 of us to stay together. I feel like I can't do this but He isn't opening any other doors right now so.....

my prayer has changed from

"Lord, help me find a more suitable place for Flor, send someone to help me and give me relief," to "Lord give me the strength, love, patience, and wisdom to care for these three Precious Miracles (Serious emphasis on the Precious!!!!) and to do it with a content heart."

Frustrated and overwhelmed....

Since Flor arrived in my home I have had a woman helping me 3 times a week. She would come on Tuesdays and Thursdays and her main job was to take Flor to therapy. Upon returning she would also help with the cooking and cleaning of the house. On Saturdays she came to help me take the girls out for the day. (Zoo, park, Latacunga, etc).
I had really organized my life to make sure I did all my grocery shopping on Thursdays when she was here, banking or any other errands on Tuesdays. I did doctor's appointments or lunch appointments on these two days as well. Last Saturday I was able to go do a children's program and witnessing in a park with a group from my church knowing she would watch the girls.
She was a big help.
Today she asked to speak to me at 3:55 (she was scheduled to leave at 4). She asked me for her pay because she would not be returning.
WOW!
So now the "single mom of 3" has really set in. I feel so alone. I feel trapped. How am I going to cope?
How do I take Flor to therapy? What do I do with Naty and Josy while Flor is in therapy? How do I do groceries or anything else with 3 kids? I know women do it all the time. But I don't. I don't know how. I'm so overwhelmed. I really have no way of leaving this house at all without piling all 3 in the car with me. That is so daunting. I just don't think I have what it takes to be the only parent or caregiver or adult influence to these 3 girls. I don't think I can be everything they need me to be. And I don't think I can do this job completely on my own.

My girls taking the pictures....

Josy and I are having a longest hair contest.... so we had Naty take our picture today. Of course then Josy wanted to take a picture too. They're pretty good little photographers my lil' ladies!