This is a pic when my brother was in town... I took him to the top of a mountain. You can see Quito behind our heads. Brrr it was chilly

This is harder than I thought....

I haven't posted in a while... because I don't want to bring everybody down. I'm so not dealing with things correctly. This whole transition has been way more difficult that I expected. All month I feel like it has been non-stop with the moving of my parents out of Ecuador. And every single day has been filled with sadness. It's not getting better or easier. I just cry all the time (when no one's looking). Mom leaves on Monday really early. Dad's already gone.
In the process of moving them, I have had to move all the Precious Miracles stuff into storage until I figure out what the next step is.
My dream? To re-open right away. I'm SO ready! I can't wait to set up cribs and put cute little chubby babies in them!!!!
Legally, I'm ready. Emotionally, I'm ready. Financially, not at all ready. So I'm trying to hang in there to see if my financial support picks up. I'm also looking for a place to re-open. I always lived in Cumbaya (yes like the song!!!!) because my parents were there. Well, obviously that's not a factor anymore. Should I be in Quito somewhere? Should I go back to Cumbaya just cause I know my way around and the weather's a bit better there?
Or... there's a possibility of moving to a beach city so I'd be closer to some other missionaries. So please if anyone is still reading these, join me in praying. I have no clear direction one way or another. I just know I'm supposed to be in this country rescuing babies.
And I want to start (continue) NOW!!!!
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Family

My mom has been here for a little over a week. My dad gets in tomorrow night. My brother comes in later this week. I am so blessed to have this time. It's an emotional time to say the least. I am very aware, painfully aware that living in Ecuador alone as opposed to living in Ecuador with my family is drastically different.
I also know that during this time that I have already been alone I kept looking forward to their visit as "when mom and dad get back." I know that they aren't "back." They are just visiting. I can say it, I can type it but it means nothing to me. I am definitely not accepting the reality. But I have peace amidst the storm. I know beyond a doubt that this is where God has placed me for such a time as this. I can't fathom what life will look like without them. But for the next couple of weeks I am going to SOAK them up!
I am pretty sure that this is the last time all four of us (The original four that came to Ecuador in 1979) will all be together in this country that has meant such a great deal to us. That's difficult to swallow.

cabbage patch Yajaira

Ok,
I know we're not supposed to have favorites.... but seriously! how cute is this child?

I know she has to be part Cabbage Patch doll!!!! I'm considering checking out her little bottom to see if there's a signature on it!

She's my fav of the week....

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