I haven't posted in a while... because I don't want to bring everybody down. I'm so not dealing with things correctly. This whole transition has been way more difficult that I expected. All month I feel like it has been non-stop with the moving of my parents out of Ecuador. And every single day has been filled with sadness. It's not getting better or easier. I just cry all the time (when no one's looking). Mom leaves on Monday really early. Dad's already gone.
In the process of moving them, I have had to move all the Precious Miracles stuff into storage until I figure out what the next step is.
My dream? To re-open right away. I'm SO ready! I can't wait to set up cribs and put cute little chubby babies in them!!!!
Legally, I'm ready. Emotionally, I'm ready. Financially, not at all ready. So I'm trying to hang in there to see if my financial support picks up. I'm also looking for a place to re-open. I always lived in Cumbaya (yes like the song!!!!) because my parents were there. Well, obviously that's not a factor anymore. Should I be in Quito somewhere? Should I go back to Cumbaya just cause I know my way around and the weather's a bit better there?
Or... there's a possibility of moving to a beach city so I'd be closer to some other missionaries. So please if anyone is still reading these, join me in praying. I have no clear direction one way or another. I just know I'm supposed to be in this country rescuing babies.
And I want to start (continue) NOW!!!!
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Hi am hear reading! The last few days have been BUSY but I check on you everyday when I am not running all over Phoenix. I wish I can give you a big hug right now! I pray for God to open up doors of opportunity and that your support floods in. I pray for peace and comfort. As I know Stacey, crying is ok for sure! Let it out. You are human. I love you and think about you all the time. Take care and follow your heart and prompting of the Holy Spirit!
Linz
www.prayforsantana.org
Here...I am HERE. And still a dork. Ha ha! Love ya.
My dear friend,
You are in good comapny as far as the crying goes. We were promised suffering as Christians. It sure stinks sometimes doesn't it? I know how you feel...directionless and paralyzed, perhaps. Waiting can be impossible. I will pray my dear. May He comfort you and give you clear direction. I love you so.
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